stepchild_thea

Well its another nite of sleeping in the clothes, though this time very intentional. MMm bed side temp says 70 but I’m still waking shivering. I think the mones are finally screwing around with my internal clocks and all. I really need so help as my skin is just drying out and feeling pebblely, maybe  a hot shower will warm me up, sigh wish I’d fit in the tub, what does a bath feel like? Though it could be its just cold lately or the diet. Dropped another lb this morning, yeah!? guess the pills are blocking something as I was not really all that hungry or maybe the tummy is getting smaller, really hope so. Any ideas for that choco need, a feeling for something sweet at the end of the meal? Got to fire up the plays2 and start video exercising after spent a day at the pute trying not to spend any money $$. I need to find anything to feel productive as my mind stagnates. Hope to get an answer over at diyshot and not get it high jacked by the arguing duo of Ange and who ever she tryin to pick a fight with this time. U’d think she needs to get laid or something  though I think it may just be a case of frustrated lonely-ness. Guess its hard to resist her flame-in as some of the regulars get dragged down or into her naggin.May be time to dump the yahoo groups as a helping source and go to the boards but really need to get pro help, but again a money issue. Today i need to call in and hope i’m working tomorrow. Come on thea you got to do something cause the only thing is my butt…      will get bigger just setting around. laters scthea

ps this was my first try posting off site with live writer, hope it works.

well its the new year no three days later. It looks like the heater is out again as its now 57 in the apartment guess i'll have to call the landlord. But first i need to clean up a bit as the slobish tendencies have taken over again. other things after 3 years of trying to grow my hair out and taking shit from my boss, i've butched it. its.. well it looks better but all that time wasted.this years goals are body wise need to lose 60 lbs and get a real job. Ever feel like your tossing money out but don't feel the drive to deal with craigs/ebay. Tecchnogy can be nice but gettng rid of the old blows. laters scthea

Um yeah, today is the family um lunch/dinner any way its almost 40 out today and its blah. I think i'll go to denny's for breakfast and watch what holiday feeling should be like. Oh and hob lob is going to be my new nicnac store yeah its got the best stuff there. Oh almost forgot diet time yeah yeah?!* sighs cthea

I was wondering, who is paying for this program... As is in am I? paying for people who had no common sense and bought cars like escalades, hummers and other gas hogs; while i was stuck getting an econo box because i didn't want to spend that much of my income supporting a to b transportation. Thanks mister Obama I guess Kars for kids and such programs weren't moving clunkers off the roads fast enough. oh well I can work another 70+ work week its just money.......

I was wondering if I should use all of my alacation of dental health benifits at the start of the year?

I think this val day i'll follow the japanese version, and gave to that special person i've had my eye on these past few weeks. Love what an odd feeling sighs scthea'

Well hears to hoping I get out of debt this year, Mom gave me a
George Foreman grill and it been a great and fun thing to cook with. Any way tonite I think i'll cry over fruit baskets last few esps laters scthe

With that holiday just around the corner; it is time once again to put the fake front up for the family.
Tho one good thing seems to be as I get older gifts have become less materialistic and more geared to satisfying the senses. This is a good thing because I need to be able to pick up and leave but have too many worldly possessions.
Well to all a happy period if your not freezing that is scthea

Well its mid week and i've accomplished nothing.

Great its 5am sat morn and now I have that flu my co worker monday was coughing all over the van. This sucks, hope its only a 48 hr thing. Sorry mom its better I stay away for moms day, sighs scthea